Enter Your Courts with Thanksgiving

So, god, I have a bone to pick with You.
You’re too enigmatic for my taste.
Your people say, “seek and ye shall find.” (KJV 7:7)
But I haven’t been successful in finding You.
Do I not seek hard enough?
Do I not recognize Your face?
My mantra:  “Like as a hart desireth waterbooks so longeth my soul for thee, O God.”  (Palestrina, Sicut Cervus)
Longing without satisfaction.
I’m so tired of dwelling outside of Your courts.
What is the key to entry?
I wish I knew.